Monday, September 29, 2014

Big News of the Week


     So Rick took the local job, and started last week. We were trying to avoid the separation of the other job, even though we knew this local job paid less than his unemployment did and we'd never be able to afford a house on what he was making. Then, the other job called him back with even MORE incentive to come to work for them. They want him on their team because of his 30+ years in the oilfield. He knows so much about everything that goes on out there they called him an "expert".
     We knew this second chance was coming along for a reason, and after a lot of discussion and prayer, he decided to switch jobs. Mainly because it pays more than 3x what the local job pays him, and the benefits are better.
     Rick will be going to work there 2 weeks from today, and while the days - and weeks - without him home will be hard, we both are focusing on the goal of being financially secure for the first time in our 29 years of marriage and putting our own roof over our heads. They say when you take the first step that everything else will follow. We've started early "negotiations" with buying a really great house now, too... and while I'm not going to say much about that so as not to "jinx" it, let's just say I hope to have more news on that front soon! Those people who have a secure place to live often take that for granted, but we've been unsettled for so long (even before the RV and threat of eviction every month) that having our own place will be heaven!
     Having him gone all the time will definitely be a test of my faith. Not a test of our marriage, separation isn't going to hurt our closeness, but not having him here to work on things when they break, or buy the propane and change it over when we run out, or chase Ranger down when he gets off the lead. (thankfully, Gunner doesn't go far if he gets loose) Or even fix the truck if it breaks down. We are hoping to get into a house soon so that much of my stress will be easier, especially since it will be cold weather soon. I have no one to call for help if I need it. He will be gone for a week - or 2 or 3 - at a time, coming home for 24 hours or less and going right back out.
     He is trying to get a lot of things done during the evenings he has left. We're trying to find some 2x6 boards so he can build a new door for the RV, the original one is held together with wire and duct tape!. I guess 30 years ago they didn't make RVs to withstand the wear of everyday living, only occasional camping trips. We'd like to aquire a couple rolls of insulation to insulate up under the RV, too, to cut some of the draftiness. We're hoping to be in a house by Thanksgiving, but it will be cold before then!

Friday, September 26, 2014

Friday Focus: Gratitude

     "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength." - Philippians 4:12-13

     Out of all the verses in the Bible, these are two that I personally identify with the most. Our struggles with lack and opposition through the years has only made us stronger, and more grateful than ever for even little things that most people might take for granted. My "Gratitude List" might not change much from day to day, but I know what it's like to not have things others take for granted, and my gratefulness is deeper for it.

"You say, 'If I had a little more I should be satisfied.' You made a mistake.
 If you are not content with what you have, you would not be satisfied if it
 were doubled." - Charles Spurgeon

     Being thankful for the hard times and being at rock-bottom is one of the most important things you can ever do. If not for what you learn during these times, you wouldn't really appreciate how amazing the good times are. One thing I've learned by watching others, holding on to grudges and resentment and unforgivness eats a person from the inside out. We should let the dark times help us appreciate the good times, and not spend our good times being resentful for the hard times we've gone through.

"Suddenly there was a great burst of light through the Darkness. The light spread out and where it touched the Darkness the Darkness disappeared. The light spread until the patch of Dark Thing had vanished, and there was only a gentle shining, and through the shining came the stars, clear and pure."
~Madeline L'Engle, 'A Wrinkle in Time'

Monday, September 22, 2014

Monday Pep Talk

"I'd rather regret the things I've done than regret the things I haven't done." - Lucille Ball

     Fear is an interesting thing. It can be viewed as the enemy, and honestly, it is the enemy of everyone who aspires to do great things. Or even small things in a great way. It can also be viewed, however, as that part of our selves that wants to protect us. Keep us from being hurt, whether physically, mentally, emotionally... financially, even. 

     I was raised to live in fear. Hold on for dear life to anything life throws your way and never try for anything greater because you might... *gasp!* FAIL! As if that was the worst thing that could ever happen to a person! 

     I believe the worst thing that can ever happen to a person is to get to the end of their lives and realize they've never lived. To live is to take chances, to reach out. Growth never happens in the comfort zone. We only grow when we step out of that comfort zone and reach for something new. Does it always work? No, of course not. But even the failures teach us, make us grow, and give us strength for the next time we reach out. 

      Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "Do one thing everyday that scares you."  I believe that to be the first step in living a life with no regrets. 

     It doesn't matter whether everything you attempt is a success. It doesn't matter if sometimes you fall flat on your face. What matters is that you keep striving, keep learning, keep growing.

Friday, September 19, 2014

KCHS Fall Homecoming

     Isaiah's freshmen class elected him as representative of the Freshman class at Fall Homecoming. Because of his extreme ADHD and borderline OCD, some of the teachers didn't have faith in him to do it alone, so a classmate was chosen to walk out with them. I'm so glad his classmates love him enough to give him the honor of being part of the Homecoming court. I just wish all his teachers had as much faith in him. (the golf coach told us later that even he tried to make them let Isaiah walk out with the girl alone, but they didn't listen to him) but he showed them - he looked like the most relaxed person on the field! He didn't let their lack of faith in him slow him down, he's confident in himself and no one's opinion changes that. I'm very happy that he is so popular, and that everyone likes him so much. Will make for great memories for him. 

     Lots of mixed emotions come up for me when I go to a HS football game, or even go to any event at the school. 

     I was not so fortunate in high school, and HS memories are very bad for me. I graduated here, too, and when I hear that school song being played I have wildly mixed feelings that come up. There are people who think verbal, mental, emotional abuse isn't as bad as physical abuse... but they're wrong. That abuse I took for 4 years in HS left scar upon scar that have never lost their sting. If only I'd have had the Internet in HS and known I wasn't the only person out there like me, known I wasn't alone. It would have made the world of difference. I look at these kids barely at the start of their lives and I wonder what I could have accomplished if people (including family) hadn't always told me I couldn't do anything, I had no talents, I was "stupid" - or if only I hadn't believed them.

     "On, Wisconsin!" has been the school song here for generations. When I graduated here. When my mom graduated here. When my grandma graduated here in 1927, I believe it was then, too. Lauren was a 4th generation graduate of GHS, but after the tornado they changed the name of the school - so I'm not sure if Isaiah qualifies as a 4th generation grad or not. I hope so. It's so very rare these days!